Been lonely in every aspects, socially, Emotionally,and even the whole teenage. hardly had any occasions, very few counted social interactions in life,Presently 20,Never managed to interact or mix in social life due to this no social experiment.Have been an addict since a year,though realizing how it degrades, no will arises to quit considering what option I have rather..dealing insomnia,concentration difficulty,Even before approaching someone rejection flashes, simply can't be myself.Even never been to female interaction which makes it even inferior among all around.Like everything tells me I don't deserve it! Moving on from simple disputes becomes hard due to lack of healthy options. Even in my birthday I'm the saddest, every social occasion and festival periods I'm most broken to see myself as left out, feel inferior to see couples and groups going together.. don't know what I missed out.. already eqquiped with so much questions and seeking out, focusing on carrer is hard for me