what is causing this suffocation?

I don't know really

But if you wish to get rid of this physical and suffocation, first you need to understand the reasons or the possible causez. First you need to identify the problems na, thereafter you pursue for sollutions

yes right. I agree. but how can I identify those

Like , if you feel being mocked or misbehaved by friends or other persons that you consider valuable. Or if you getting physically abused by somebody..You said you been feeling physical and mental suffocation..There's are just instances..May be you can relate if something like this is happening to you.

I have frnds but I don't feel like frnds they feel like acquaintances. my frnds family everyone constantly judges me on how less I eat. how thin I am. how ugly I look. how dumb I am. how worthless I am.how I am not good at anything. I don't usually express myself to someone but if I do all these people act as hypocrites and tell me that it's again my fault and I should not focus on it and then next moment they start doing the same thing which in the first place made me sad

it's a very good ques, I would like an ans too.

@Normiee your family members will constantly judge you on the basis of how less food you take or on other things such as looks or wit..Yaar tell them on face with disgrace that man i can't eat more food since my stomach is already full or you are not hungry anymore. Keep doing the same as long as they understand.Amd for looks tell them the harsh truth that they are only making conservative comments..Tell them they are making you feel inferior.Tell their perspective of looking at beauty is not correct.They will tell you that you are good for nothing but I sure know that deep down you also realise that everybody has xfactor..Don't listen na! just ignore what need to be ignored..Counter what needs to be countered. Express yourself where needed..And as for friends if you have some sort of so called aquatances tell them why you feel unfriendly. Somebody will definitely be able to match your vibes or your thinking pattern.

It's human tendency to judge or blame other people since very less people have the courage to admit mistakes..Some of family members used to do the same thing with me , i just didn't give two fucks!

@lordshuk - he seems to be offline

thankyou @lordshuk. I may not feel 100% alright right now but sharing here and getting yall support felt 0.7% better than before which my seem less but till yesterday I couldn't feel even 0.1%

yeah sharing is caring brother! share whatever you feel, don't hesitate. It will help you to get answers..Altho we don't know much.Just talk and feel light

if its gets excess, then just listen to your fav music / look at your fav person or anything that brings peace and calm. then try to think practically one step at a time

thankyou thankyou so much. everytime I shared something with someone they start sharing their thing. which is alright but sometimes you just want someone to listen and not share their things and compare it with mine to show that mine's not worth the time and just ignore it and give zero importance to what I say. all my life I've been a listener because of this. but it does feel nice when someone listens to you for once. and even nice when the person doesn't shut me off saying I am such a woos or how many times do we have to listen to your worthless shit or get over it already or you are so boring and ghost me for life. Experiencing these things from 8 yrs now. Earlier it used to be different. The people, frnds ,city everything was different.

thankyou @lostandfound02 I used to do that but all efforts I'm vain. I'll try doing that more often now that after sharing I can see a ray of hope. listening to fav music coz I don't really have any fav person right now. you people are like God to me at this moment. I really mean it.