i'm so sorry you're feeling this way, we're all here by your side, you're not alone. thanks for sharing your story with us, you're very strong. please do not base your happiness on a person, because in the end the only person who'll be there for you in the end is YOU. please put yourself first. i get how attached you were to your bestfriend, but you deserve way better. he didnt mind losing a friendship for your enermy. you deserve way better and more love. you have me, you have all of us, we care about you. take this time for yourself my dear

thank you so muchhhh, I really needed to hear that, I am feeling way better now