today is my first birthday after getting dumped before 1 month. all can think right now is how he made a whole pdf document with so many paragraphs and pictures on my last birthday. i can't stop missing him and have been crying the whole night. my friends keep encouraging me and supporting me to get through it but this is getting harder with every passing day. he has moved on and is doing well in his life. i don't know whether i should wait for his wish or not although i know he is not gonna wish me or unblock me anywhere. i dont wanna waste anybody's efforts today who are doing so much for making me happy and my day special. i wonder if he remembers what he did for me last year on this day and if he misses me? all those good memories and flashes that earlier gave me butterflies in my stomach now give anxiety in my chest and a choked throat. i feel like running away from all these memories and nothing more.