I don't what it is,but it is killing from inside day by day it's getting worse,neither I can't let it go nor I can accept it.It's just been inside me from a very long time.I'm trying to live with it but I can't it's killing me,I don't know about others my existence is bothering me,it's hard to breathe, sometimes I don't even feel anything,legs it's like I'm floating,sometimes everything hurts from top to bottom feels like someone I squeezing my head and no I don't wanna go to Doctor or a Therapist. I don't wanna fight against this,don't wanna fight against myself and I can't give up I've been struck it's hurting if I'm trying to get out of this and also it's hurting if I'm staying like this,how hard I think the only solution I get is, I shouldn't exist,I should see an end and I'm scared if that too. I don't have energy to fight or try,tired getting exhausted physically and mentally,feels like it's just a matter of time everything is gonna end if end myself.