i feel very guilty and suicidal for not having chosen the right path for self improvement...now I have very less time , people of my age are much advanced than before. But I didn't choose an identity for myself I demolished myself I fell prey to peer group who sabotaged me and I was too dumb to fall in their trap.,....,..........in short I lacked so much self confidence and esteem ......i trusted others instead of improving myself that led to my so much failure to thrive