It's been a month, and here I am again. I feel like I'm starting to lose my sense, because there's a voice in my head that saying that everyone's around me are saying bad things to me, like they're backstabbing me. I do love them but I can't trust them, because they are treating me like I'm a trash?. I just want to cry, but I can't. And my head telling me that I should drink alcohol and hurt myself so I can feel the pain more.