hey everyone, this is my first post here. I'm 17 M. last month on 5th May my grandmother passed away , this took a heavy toll on me i couldn't cry but i was shattered from inside. when I saw her wrapped in coffin that terrified me. i somehow attended the whole funeral ever since that day I'm getting weird thoughts and images of her wrapped in that coffin , her pale face. i sometimes think I'll die and I'm terrified. i don't want to die yet. whenever I remember her or someone talks about her my chest feels heavy and it feels hard to breath , chest starts paining. my sleep cycle is fucked. I'm insecure about my height and body too. but i have to keep it together. i haven't told anyone because i think my family wouldn't understand and I'll make a fool out of myself. even right now I'm feeling like it's hard to breath and i might die. what should I do? please help

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hey everyone, this is my first post here. I'm 17 M. last month on 5th May my grandmother passed away , this took a heavy toll on me i couldn't cry but i was shattered from inside. when I saw her wrapped in coffin that terrified me. i somehow attended the whole funeral ever since that day I'm getting weird thoughts and images of her wrapped in that coffin , her pale face. i sometimes think I'll die and I'm terrified. i don't want to die yet. whenever I remember her or someone talks about her my chest feels heavy and it feels hard to breath , chest starts paining. my sleep cycle is fucked. I'm insecure about my height and body too. but i have to keep it together. i haven't told anyone because i think my family wouldn't understand and I'll make a fool out of myself. even right now I'm feeling like it's hard to breath and i might die. what should I do? please help

enviousleopard2 · Answer

talk to your mother or father or a elder from your family. all our families are gone through many experiences ,they also had lst their loved ones, they may had the sane situation as yours and these things ought to happen when we see someone whom we love to die and will be no more in our life .

badmoodhub · Answer

how do I find the words to talk to them. i think I shouldn't bother them with my stupid problems

enviousleopard2 · Answer

you are their kid. they love you and will be ready to help u in any situation and many a times the grandkids are traumatized by the death of their grandparents as there is a special bonding between them. I think that your family will understand your sitution and will help you to cope up.

enviousleopard2 · Answer

and yes your problem is not stupid.i'm also traumatized when my mother' s aunt died .i know it a bit far relation but she loves and cares about me a lot .i still miss her but life is a game . we have to keep playing how harsh it gets.

badmoodhub · Answer

thank you everyone 🌟

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