here I'm troubling PPL again but i just wanted to clear my feelings.just day before yesterday i got my 12th results in which i got supplementary in physics in my entire school year I never got one i always scored top marks bt this tym it's so bad everyone blames me for it but i tried really hard i remembered evrythng day b4 exam bt at exm i pnked nd frgt evrythng i NVR wanted this i tried to make them understand bt now I'm not feeling good about it at all i nvr had friends to talk to I'm very detached from my parents i feel shakiness and numbness in my body it's like i just want to cry bt whenever I cry i get panick attack i just want PPL to understand that it's not freaking easy for me to get through it alone i talked to my parents after scolding they support me to work hard but still I'm not free good it's very uneasy feeling in me my hands feel numb and shaky i feel like I'm unable to breathe and i don't know how to share my feelings with anyone i mainly cut off PPL from me plz hlp

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satesh · Answer

hey moonmin, I understand it's difficult to face people who decide people future n image on marks only. don't think too much about it.. as u told, u had talkwith ur parents. so now focus on clearin supplementary and then we will see ahead. u can share here as u ur self helping many. u wanna shout, u can. crying is not gonna help but clear the exam will. so just don't think too much

Moonmin05 · Answer

i dont know why i feel alone even after having friends who support me i don't know why whenever I need help i can't reach PPL i always try to help PPL even though i have to compromise i don't expect anyone to help me bt it just i don't know why i always have to show that everything is fine i always show that i don't need anyone bt it's not true I'm not ok at all whith anything i faced till now tbh i don't care how anyone feel about me bt it's just that i also want to be understood

satesh · Answer

we need someone who can understand us. to whom we can share what's in mind n heart. so nothing wrong in expecting. if u wanna talk, we can. tg @krishnafriends

Moonmin05 · Answer

i know crying not gonna help me i don't care about marks either it's just that i don't why PPL want me to understand everything I'm the 1st born it doesn't mean that i always have to act mature

Moonmin05 · Answer

i know everyone from my family love me they care for me more than any other children bt don't know why i feel distant and detached from them

satesh · Answer

hmmm. that's right but it's their expectations. let them expect. u shud do what u can. don't think too much. everyone of us have our own story and issues. so just do what u feel to do  . be stupid enough to make people stop commenting them

satesh · Answer

because now u feel little bad that u r not able to stand to their expectations. they luv u that matters. so just talk to them again. and tell them I m not feeling good like even to talk to u. they will understand. and tell them that u will clear supplementary

Moonmin05 · Answer

i think when I share about my prblm or condition to my parents it supposed to be kept private or to be between us bt it was never like that they always tell everything to others i don't want anyone to know about my weakness bt it's always end up in that way

satesh · Answer

hmm. that's not good. but it doesn't matter now. it's not weakness. if u understand this than doesn't matter what other think of u. everyone has weakneses.  and I don't think failing in exam is weakness. it's just exam

Moonmin05 · Answer

i already told like so many times but i don't know why they think that i make excuses i know that I'm elder among my siblings bt still i regret it i always wanted everyone around me to be happy bt they don't care about my feelings

Moonmin05 · Answer

i dont care about exam or marks either I'm just telling about my feelings towards them how i feel about their behaviour

satesh · Answer

hmm. difficult to be first born. even I m. but I can tell u, don't feel guilty of anything. I have seen good n bad part of life both. so I know that u will get ur path and do good in life. don't listen to them but clear the supplementary with good marks. try ur best. that will be ur answer to them. like I was topprr all thru still I m here on this app. so being intelligent doesn't guarantee happiness either.

satesh · Answer

they will slowly accept who u r. u don't stop taking to them, loving them, make small moments with siblings. things will be good again

Moonmin05 · Answer

i just wanted them to treat me equally as everyone they always say you are elder u should understand u always got everything more then ur siblings bt why don't they understand that i don't need anything more than their tym And understanding i don't have many friends bt still i have 3 besties i always help them bt when I'm in need i can't reach out to them

Moonmin05 · Answer

i never stopped loving them i even love everyone more then myself

satesh · Answer

hmm. it's way of parenting. they want elder one to grow early. it's manufacturing defect of parenting. this doesn't mean they are tonting u. don't think too much about it. talk to ur friends. it will be more helpful.

Moonmin05 · Answer

since childhood i never had good friends of my age even in my family my all cousins are either younger or elder my parents always said don't play with small kids or don't stay with elder too much so i was always alone even now if I play with my siblings they say ur not a kid anymore and when i don't stay with them they say u don't like them or talk to them

satesh · Answer

why u listen to them. play with them. parents always say and it's in every family. u can share with ur eldr cousins also. just don't listen what shit they say. just be deaf ear ☺☺😃

Moonmin05 · Answer

it's about trust i have trust issues

satesh · Answer

hmm that's understandable  . then u can share here. or any stranger u r comfortable with. and yes just smile 😄😄☺😊😊

Moonmin05 · Answer

yeah

satesh · Answer

haven't seen ur smile 😀. smile pls

Moonmin05 · Answer

🙂thanks for it

satesh · Answer

welcome welcome 🎉🎉

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