I have lost many of my friends I made in my life. Some of them used me, some spoke bad about me behind me. I used to think that they did wrong with me. But now when I have almost lost all of those who I have trusted, I feel like there is some fault in me, that I don't have any friends. I feel like I did something wrong, but I always helped them, and when I needed them they were never present. I sometimes wish I could go back to them, but then I feel like I should not. I miss them and I wish to hate them. There is just so much controversy going on within my mind. Even now when I need someone to talk to there is no one with me. I want to be alone but sometimes being alone just eats me up. Not having anyone in my life to talk to it sometimes bothers me and sometimes it feels good.