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I am getting continuous betrayals and lying on my face by my closest people I am feeling so low don't know what to do

I can understand this is reality trust here and talk here don't worrry the people who make u sad is not worth for you

I'm here to support and to stand with you maybe u don't me that's okay I will be for you 😊💞❤️

I am so much emotionally attached to them specifically with the one I love and she is like she doesn't care how much her actions leads me to getting hurt

how are feeling now , AB?

not okay i am not able to focus anywhere and it's affecting me badly

are you both still in love ?

why are u not able to focus?

I am not sure about her but I seriously do love her

coz everytime I do some work I am getting flashbacks of them

every time I go to bed it just revolves around my mind again and again

flashbacks of who?

flashbacks of their lies on my face sometimes of the most beautiful moments i ever spent with them

then go talk with her say all the things politely be calm if she truly loves u surely ur prblm will be solved

@AB- what do u see in those flashbacks?

we are currently in a long distance and since I have my leg fractured i can't visit to her and express my feelings but i tried and explained her directly and indirectly how much she is hurting over our video call but her attitude was like she doesn't care for whatever happens

@AB - is that what u see in flash backs?

@skylar i close my eyes out of no where i get things on my head things like scenarios where they are lying it's like reliving those memories again and again

@AB - elaborate, if u r comfortable, what are they saying to u? who's they here? what memories are u reliving?

so I don't have a big circle of close friends i do have some close friends and they I am referring to 3 of my closest people among them 1st the person I love we will refer her as SG 2nd is my closest friends from school we can call her Nush and 3rd is my brother we are too close

ohk... and what do u see in memories?

And about memories I am continuously reliving the memories in which they are betraying me when I needed them most or lying me to the face

hmm... can u narrate the incident? were all 3 of them involved?

Let's talk about SG she is continuously lying me on the face by giving me baseless excuses And the fun fact she always used to say she never lies and actually never did atleast at our initial stages she is giving me same fucking reasons on a loop

so this SG is lying to you for what?

SG is involved directly and the other two are the ones whom i trusted will be there for me in the time of need and they just turned their back

everytime I msg her and call her she is like I am busy or I am having headache or stomach ache.....and then she is like we will talk later

and I used to believe she literally wasn't feeling well but later what i see she is having fun with friends chatting over WhatsApp sharing posts

why did other two turn their back? what did u need from them

she said I am having headache I will be sleeping then later what I see she is out somewhere having fun (I saw on our common friends snapchat)

ooh, I understand how u feel, it hurts when someone make excuses to not to talk with u, but they are having fun.

I actually wanted to share my stuff what I am going through and they are like ok it happens you tell us what should we do for you then later they were like not even replying or replying late and were like handle yourself

is this something u recently noticed? or it's has been going for a while.?

Infact lets take today's scenario I texted her she replied I am sleeping we will talk later I asked what happen she was like headache it was around 8:30 I reminded her she has to fill some form today was last date coz and she said ok I am filling it we will talk later and then she left and around 10:30 she calls me and asks about the form how to fill I asked her you said you were sleeping and you were filling form earlier she said naah I slept and woke up again just to fill form I told about the form then asked her what you will be doing she said I am again going for a sleep...dude literally she said I woke up just now and her voice wasn't sounding like she even slept a minute

it's been going for some while now atleast 1 month now things are shaping like this gradually bad to worse to worst

what about other two?

they are like we can't help you they aren't 1% interested for hearing what I am going through and I was the first person everytime they needed someone and look what I am getting in return

what do you think can be the reason behind their this behaviour?

IDK if I knew I wasn't be this sad

, that's ohk to feel like that. ever thought to confront them?

I did and their response was okay for an entire big msg of mine

@AB- just like that , they didn't said u anything when u guys met?

they didn't even cared enough to come and meet me as my leg is fractured right now

@Ab - how did u get ur leg fractured?

while playing with colleagues I tripped and my ankle got twisted

@ AB - I hope u get a speedy recovery.

how are u feeling now?

not okay.... it's been feeling like inner me is shattered

thats ok, ever thought about giving them same treatment as they treat u?

@skylar- I tried returning them favours but i couldn't or I say I wouldn't was able to do that somewhere the soft spot they have in me for them just literally saved them

but dont you think, letting go of these people, who doesn't understand ur worth will liberate you from these expectations from them?

I've talked with u for 1hr, I can certainly say, you deserve to heard AB. you're worth it.

@skylar- I agree you I think it might be the time I should stop thinking about them it won't be easy but I have to try If I have to fix myself

Thanks a lot for hearing me out it helped me a lot...

@AB- anytime,Im always here.yeah, I know.. in beginning it feel more lonely, but u'll find better people, I promise. maybe start with telling them how they make u feel - more like a closure / goodbye type. get rid of all those things from ur chest u've buried inside u.

yes I will I have given so much of time of mine in trying to fix things but its better to get rid of them and have a fresh start again

that's the spirit AB

I hope now u r feeling better?

much better

I'm glad, take care of yourself, get well soon, good night!

you too thanks again for hearing me out, Byee Gn