and like on our second subject I've experienced it again
And i'm the leader of a group activity, we all failed because I can't focus i'm literally Dissapointed in myself
for how long it lasted?
don't be disappointed in yourself, things like these happened, you didn't do anything intentionally, it's not your fault.
it lasted for som. minutes then it's back again
did you face any breathing problems or blurred vision?
no because literally I'm so sad because my group mate's failed, i mean it's okay if i'm the only one who failed
Yes because i have Asthma and i have poor eyesight.
but you didn't do anything intentionally, don't be so hard on yourself.
are you a real person?
it's my first time using this apk
i don't know what i'm doing
how old are you?
yeah I am a real person, why you think I am not?
I am 18
because it's a random apk i literally never heard before
but people you meet here are real people, I have been using this app for a while.
i have a question, if you don't literally have appetite for days and felt like u will puked if u eat. is this an eating disorderm
are you insecure about your body?
But school is not only my problem, My Family literally pressure me .. they say things like oh look at ur cousin she have high grades u should be inspired and when my dad knew i'm out of the honors students he literally called me dumb, i fucking cried for hours
I'm insecure about my physical appearance, like i don't even have a sport and my friends have one i felt like they looked down on me now.
is this the reason you don't have appetite for days?
no, I don't think soo, I don't know༼;´༎ຶ ༎ຶ༽
u know i'm fucking Asian sooo please i'm so sick of this toxicity
do you have any digestive problems?
and My friends ,i just knew they betrayed me, and when they find out what happened earlier thwy don't even do a shit!
no i don't have one, i literally eat a lot but now I canty
for any reason you are avoiding food?
it started when i skip a breakfast cause i'm late for school cause like if i go passed 6:30 A.M i'm late and they we're so strict , I'm gonna go to a guidance office for it
i woke up at 5:00 AM!!!!!!!
then i didn't noticed i'm doing it everyday
so you are afraid of being late that's what causing you to skip breakfast?
and i'm so bad at math, our teacher literally so fast on explaining and when we ask questions som. of our classmates would tease us for not understanding it, like it's literally messed up!!!
yes , because I don't want to go at the guidance office
and i'm the one who need to cook my food .. if i wanted to eat breakfast i should wake up at 4😭 my family woke up late
and when i'm late my parents would say 'you should be more independent, you act so slow! '
please i felt like i needed a therapist but i'm literally so broke and i'm keeping my money for damn Glasses.. because if my parents would say I'm just dramatic for being mentally unstable
i study at a Catholic Private School, so i need to go to mass every sunday too for attendance 😭
and i have a friend , i have anger issues, i didn't talk to her abt this cause she'll have a hard time again being a therapist friend and i don't like that i'm the reason why she's being stressed.. i'm hard on her sometimes so i felt guilty
i mean i'm not complaining for going to mass, it's just that i wanted to have som. rest too😭
i attempted suicide 3 times
please tell me if u can't handle me , cause i'm telling u I can't even handle myself anymore.
hey calm down, take a deep breath
i don't want to go to school tomorrow I'm so sooo embarrassed of what i did, what if they think i'm so fucking Dumb!!!!!!!!!!
and if i failed again I'm soo fucked up!!!!!!!!
should i go study more!??
you have nothing to handle, you are a normal person with problems and you are just looking for solutions, their is nothing more than that, don't think so low of yourself.
do you want to know how old i am?
I'M FUCKING 15 I ATTEMPTED SUCIDE AT 14!!!! ISN'T THAT FUCKING SUCKS I'M SO YOUNG I'm the eldest daughter, first grandchild and Niece the pressure is all on me!!!!!!!!!!
no, you shouldn't study right now, take rest because you are going through a lot, your body needs rest, physically and mentally, do things you enjoy, listen to your favourite and go for a walk, watch some cute videos.
my goodness, at 15, your right that's really to young for you, I can understand being the eldest sibling.
how can i do that, we have a quiz tomorrow , we literally have quiz yesterday too 😭 please i don't know what to do now
how much have you learned of that quiz?
see? I'm just 15!!!! and i'm experiencing all this stuff . i literally have breakdowns like everyday
well i knew som. stuff about the quiz, but It's sucks cause Sometimes there's a time limit with no ereasures
i wanna' go to another school but ofc my parents won't let me and i have no choice they're the one's paying my school stuff
what's the time their?
7:55 i didn't eat dinner
eat dinner first because you are going to need energy and which subjects test it is?
i sometimes wake up at 3 or 4 Am to review and at 5 Am i will go take a shower and go to school , but for now i literally need someone to talk to, like i don't wanna' have breakdowns again
what you want talk about?
the subject is Filipino, i lived in the Philippines, and it's kinda' hard with the words that like sounds similar and also their meaning.. but i reviewed yesterday so i think i can handle it for now, but I'll review later
I wanna' talk about if imo going to school tomorrow cause i'm literally embarrassed, i feel like everyone is judging me for what i did a while ago, and they might think i dumb right now.. I DON'T WANNA GO ANYMORE I WANAAAAA DISAPPEAR!!!!!
just give your best, girl, I know your parents will be disappointed if you don't score an A grade, but I am here for you and I know your struggles and how much you worked hard, so don't put pressure on yourself.
YK I ALWAYS SAY LIKE LIVING IS HARD CUZ .. UR BORN , STUDY FOR LIFE, AND DIE... LIKE WHAT'S THE FUCKING POINT OF LIVING!!! I CAN'T EVEN ENJOY SCHOOL
are you from America?
where u from?
do you know how jealous are we as Filipinos, like u people from other countries literally have the best school life!! u can even hang out all night.. like here we have a curfew which all people needed to be inside their home at 9 or ur goin' to jail.. and strict parents
we can't experience those school Fair and stuff
girl, it's the same here also, I literally stay in my house forever.
and sometimes I have to study for like 13-15 hours, I have been through your phase.
LmfaooOo like u wanted to do those aesthetics where you and ur friends go to park at night and take vids, it sounds fun and sucks
so we're both Asian😭
plssdd i thought ur from States HAHAHA
WHAT'S ur goal on being here on this apk?
girl, let me tell you something, their is a famous quote about India, "whatever you say about India, the opposite is also true", here some privileged people can get whatever they want without any hardwork, and their are also people like us who live the same life as you.
I have severe anxiety and panic attacks, so I vent about my problems here.
Do you know what SUCKS more? our education System here.. like they have high standards for employees but they give the bare minimum of Salaries
ohh my g!! now i don't think i'm a freak, cause i knew som. people are struggling too
your right, they don't even pay us a liveable amount.
nurses salaries for a month is 6,957.06 Indian Rupee, like girl u studied ur ass of and pay expensive stuff for school and u get that a month???!!??
That's why a lot of people here go abroad for work because our government sucks!!!
and u gotta pay those expensive bills
yeah even I am planning to go abroad for my further studies.
i wanna go Abroad too, but i can't even socialized in a city here, like literally I don't know how to commute, my family forbid me to see the world lmfaoo💀😭
my family owned Lands in our small province , they worked in the government and my aunts are Architect, and Nurse in Saudi which now u understand why i'm pressured as hell!
I can sort of relate, I haven't been out of my house for years.
i don't know how to commute I'm goin' college in two years , how can i survive 😭 im on 4th year highschool and as i said our education system sucks, they added extra 2yrs for us to study before going to college so then we will graduate at 25 or more
that's bad to hear, 😔😥😨
i don't even know what to get on college 😭 I didn't figured out yet what i'm good at༼;´༎ຶ ༎ຶ༽
yea it's so fucking bad!!! we're gonna go old studying and die
girl, you have nothing to figure out, you will do what you're parents want you to because they are paying the college fees. you are asian, don't forget that.
sorry if that was mean
Yes it's sucks
damn, it's amazing to have conversations with you, you're cool girl.