i have been trying to get into my dream college since 2 years. it was my last attempt and i failed. Everyone around me said that i wasted 2 important years of my life without any result. my parents were disappointed (ofcourse i gave them a reason) . Now, i am thinking of getting a private college but that doesn't provide you with good employment opportunities. I do know that one has to work hard to get a good life, but still it feels so suffocating. i had worked really hard to get there, but i couldn't. now even my frnds don't like to talk to me just bcoz of this. i was in a happy relationship and now it is on the verge of a breakup just bcoz of this reason. it seems like everyone was there with me bcoz of my success and when things go down they all seem to leaving one by one. i feel depressed. i have no one to share this. hopeless and suffocating. the only thing that i fear the most was not letting down people who blvd in me. it happened once again.