This is beyond the border line! I am so done with myself. When I thought I finally out of my zone.. soon enough I get back to it again. Why would thwy do that!!! So heartless. Somtime I feel people don't see other as people too. Its weird but I actually feel that insidw of my whole soul. Everyone uses me these days but why? They don't even care. I don't trust them or their words. Mum looking at me as a nicw person but she actually haye that I was even born. I mean she have the other 4 who have a better status than i am. And so she can just throw me like she always did. Everytime she hits me I don't feel hurt physicallt butu mentally. It hurts me inside. If everyone hates u, would not u end up hating that person too. As I am silent to people they use it and get whatever the hell they want from me even at the best thing, volunteering. My partener in volunteering is actually awful .. she comes late. Never tells anyone she is ganna come and always things about what to do