I sometimes wish the world would just end so that everything can be over with, or I just don't want to be here anymore. But I don't want to leave my son in this cruel world alone and he is the only person that gives me the motivation to even think about a future or be better. I am paranoid to even leave my home because of how wicked the hearts of mankind have become. I try to be bubbly in front of everyone because that's what I usually am and I don't want to explain what is wrong because I don't even know how to explain how I'm feeling to them. Plus I don't want to because they don't understand. I feel like a failure in life because I don't have it all figured out 27. I can't sleep at nights and when I do during the day it's 2 hrs the most. At nights I turn to porn to de- stress and I honestly want to stop because it absolutely does nothing for me but at the same time I do not want to have sex with anyone at all. If I even think about sex with anyone it makes me sick and annoyed. I have no feeling to be close to friends or even have a relationship. The thought of a relationship or being around people for a lengthy period, makes me sick as well. I have not seen my period for months because I have PCOS but I think the stress is a contributing factor to it and I've gained so much weight. Recently I have no feeling to work out and when I do, I dont finish it . I sometimes lash out at my family and I don't mean to and its so frustrating. I am so TIRED and I want to scream. I have no motivation to do anything and when I do it only lasts for an hour. I don't know what to do. HELP