hye bro....

could you tell me why are you in depression?

it all started back in 2019 after I passed my highschool.....i was a very bright student and everyone had expectations from even i did had .....i was confident smart and hardworking...but i lost everything after the pandemic ,cause i was horrified by our college online classes they didn't tech well , they used to tech us with voice messages....i left that college and it cost 50k i was depressed cause of that heavy loss , cause in from a middleclass family.....after that it didn't stopped ,it got worse after i was shifted to another city for studies , i used to wake up at 3 am and cry and walk from one place to another.......cause of all that trauma, I'm still suffering.....my brain is now dull

i feel like I'm stupid

i always day dream of fulfilling my dreams ......i don't talk much with my parents , especially mom

Now what are you doing in studies?

i don't know why I feel so heavy, it feels like my heart will explode now, my head is too heavy ...i wanna die , i wish I could change it

are you asking bout my subjects?

or my grades?

no bro...I m asking about course...

i am preparing for medical entrance

and listen marks doesn't affect you....just focus on study not marks....and you can do anything in your life....nd don't be think that about die...nd listen first talk to your mom...told her everything about you....she will understand nd your heart will be light.... definitely

that's very great..... focus on study ok?

i feel ashamed of talking about this things it feels like maybe I'm overeating....or maybe they will make fun of me

i have never been close to her

since my childhood

there is anyone in your home.... whose is very close to you?

i find her creepy I'm sorry but I'm my case she gave me some childhood traumas that i can't forget she is not like other moms she is kinda different and creepy

okay

i don't have anyone .......my father used to love me but not anymore cause his friends said to him that ill be spoiled

i know that feeling , if i should give you an advice i will for sure recommend you to speak to a person who you really trusting him because sometime we need just a person who listen to us and i am here for your if you want to speak . all love

i don't know what to do he expects me to become a doctor....but he don't know that at this point I need a doctor

thanks pattex

yep i don't have anyone

even my bestfriend think that I'm living a great life