I think I'm going to kill myself soon..and if something horrible happens I'll actually do it. Though I was thinking of hanging myself from the ceiling but I don't want my family to find me dead I want to run far away from home and then kill myself somewhere where nobody will find me. I just don't know what to do anymore..

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guiltystork0 · Answer

why you want to die

jealousburritos9 · Answer

cuz I just do lol

farshy756 · Answer

hey, calm down, tell what happened to you?

jealousburritos9 · Answer

well I have seen enough... I'm 16 and I think I don't want to live anymore. I don't think anything will fix this idk should I run away or what hopefully they won't find me before I die

jealousburritos9 · Answer

this is like a werid feeling idk who to describe it but too much emotions run thru me for no reason. I don't want to be here I want to stay in a void where there's nothing but darkness I don't really understand other human being and all why they act like they do I feel different from them.

skylar · Answer

how long have u been feeling like this?

jealousburritos9 · Answer

I have been feeling like this from 12

farshy756 · Answer

any trauma?

jealousburritos9 · Answer

idk if it's a trauma or not but when I was a child people around me acted mean toward me and I stared social anxiety

farshy756 · Answer

I see, do you have any insecurities?

jealousburritos9 · Answer

a lot of insecurities- my whole body- my body language-the way I speak-the way I look I can't even make eye contact with my mom properly sometimes

farshy756 · Answer

see first you need to acknowledge yourself for the smallest effort you have made ,from setting your bed to getting yourself a glass of water.

farshy756 · Answer

and no one sees us the way we think they might see us.

jealousburritos9 · Answer

meh alright don't worry about me

jealousburritos9 · Answer

I'll be fine I guess

skylar · Answer

so are u feeling like overwhelmed... like suffocated with criticism by ur self but it was imposed on u by people around u ..?

farshy756 · Answer

hey, come on you can share what you have in your mind?

jealousburritos9 · Answer

yes something like that I'm suffocating I feel like I need to hurt myself physically so I will feel less pain mentally I started cutting my arms and legs with knife and razor blades when I was 13

jealousburritos9 · Answer

my mom is the only reason if I live she the only person I love if she leaves me too.. I'll probably be dead

jealousburritos9 · Answer

omg it feels weird to talk about all these I hope u won't judge me I seriously can't think straight and idk what's the right thing to do

farshy756 · Answer

you can say what you have in your mind

farshy756 · Answer

let it all out.

jealousburritos9 · Answer

ok so I have this thing called peter pan syndrome also social anxiety and stuff I don't remember I keep forgetting things easily nowdays. I'm also a loser with no friends I feel worthless Im starting to believe in nihilism. I just- idk man..why would you guys worry about me like there are other important people than me who needs more help than me

jealousburritos9 · Answer

😞 my mind is trying to kill me help me pls someone before it's too late

farshy756 · Answer

you are also as important as those people.

farshy756 · Answer

do you want to have a conversation?

jealousburritos9 · Answer

thanks but even if u say it I just don't feel anything like not happy or anything just numb I just can't believe that I'm important idk why

farshy756 · Answer

please reply you're making me scared 😭😭

jealousburritos9 · Answer

no please don't worry about me u should take care of urself for being a wonderful human

farshy756 · Answer

I know what you are going through is really painful mentally and physically and everyday just feels like a struggle to live but you deserve better, you are worthy of better. you can get better with help and self care. don't lose hope.

jealousburritos9 · Answer

yes I want to have a conversation maybe some of my questions will have answers

farshy756 · Answer

and what about you @jealousburritos9? you are also an amazing person who deserves the world.

farshy756 · Answer

I would love to help you find the answers to your questions.

farshy756 · Answer

let's start, what you're name?

farshy756 · Answer

mine is Harshita.

jealousburritos9 · Answer

like real name..?

farshy756 · Answer

yeah, if you are comfortable to share here. we can also talk somewhere else.

farshy756 · Answer

or we can do a different question.

jealousburritos9 · Answer

sigh ok I hope nobody finds me they will think I'm stupid(or not I don't know:(). ok I'm Hanory

farshy756 · Answer

nice name, you're a girl or guy?

jealousburritos9 · Answer

let's talk somewhere else.. please If u like :)

farshy756 · Answer

sure

farshy756 · Answer

where?

jealousburritos9 · Answer

I have snap,discord

farshy756 · Answer

what is your discord?

jealousburritos9 · Answer

elfen2#2355

farshy756 · Answer

I sent you a request.

skylar · Answer

huh...sry I'm late (my data ran off).. I hope u r doing better now...,don't think anyone would judge u on this platform for feeling numb,overwhelmed or anything....

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