everyone face such problems brother I also feel defeated make one good friend or if not possible try to write it in your diary or somewhere
The fact that everyone says its faced by everyone irritates me even more. Maybe everyone faces it so what I am talking about myself. Am I not an individual and just a crowd.
I have been trying to write it down but it just increasses my anxiety fearing someone might see it.
sharing feeling.. everyone is not worth of it.. you need to find someone. to whom you can blindly trust. and share your feeling
Frankly how do u make friends really. R they hanging out somewhere
friends are not made easily
if there are no frieds. you need to learn to live alone
i have trusted blindly and faced the consequences of it. its not worth it.
yeah dude. i have many friends.. but everyone is not worth taking risk..
sometimes i feel i dont have any friends
i have always lived alone. Trust me its not always fun to live with your thoughts hunting you. i take ayurvedic anxiety pills to calm myself down. Otherwise I don't know what i will do.
why do u feel defeated?
Thank you for that question. no body asks why. There r many things. i am bad at expressing myself.
skylar I don't remember a day in my life that i can say i have been happy. Now I feel old and feel i cannot deal with it anymore.
u took the first step by sharing this, didn't u? i know it's hard to express but can u try?
u feel old...... what's ur age? and what's happiness for you?
thank you skylar. i wish someone could listen to me once.
i am 43
happiness for me is being able to share my feelings. i have become bitter. people seem to run away from me.
I feel so done.
why do you think u ve become bitter?
I am the youngest of 4 siblings. My mother wentinto depression after I was born. She was disconnected to me. My father was a very dominating person.
i have become bitter because of my experiences. My own family has not stood with me in my hour of need.
They put me down and dont even realise it.
i feel i have lost my dignity. there are many times i feel I don't want to live. but try to overcome it
how long have u been feeling like this?
i get irritated very fast due to which scares me a lot about myself. i am scared of getting close to anyone. because I get stressed out very easilyof everything
i have had these feelings for a very long time
i tried to commit sucide when i was 16
i have struggled thought these feelings through out my life.
i am unable to connect to people.
can u elaborate these feelings here?
sorry skylar I am unable to see your messages
r u there
yes I'm here
refresh ur feed
can u see my last question?
skylar. it has been difficult.
u asked me to elaborate on my feelings
I had an arraned marriage when I was 26. it didn't work out. Then after 2 years I felt I met someone and married again
it may feel difficult in expressing ur emotions, but try it... you'll feel much lighter.....
My sixth sense was constantly telling me something is off.but i still went ahead and got married.
i gave him all my savings and everything. We bought the house but it was only in his name. he said once we get married he will put my name. we got married i paid for all the furniture, and every month all my salary was used to take care of our needs
he never put my name in the house when I asked to put my name he tried to kill me.
he opened the door of the house stripped me naked and tried to kill me.
i wasn't able to stand up for myself even though the medical reports and everything was on ky side.
i get anxiety attacks when I have to stand up for myself.
i get scared. i get angry but express myself in ways that feels as if I am guilty
are u out of that relationship now?
it angers me more inside when I am unable to stand for myself.
i ran away from that house
every time I want to apply for divorce i strt getting anxiety attacks
my family is so judgemental they r certain it is because of my anger.
but it is not true at alll. this makes me very angry
i think its not really anger. its not able to put across how i feel.
i have difficulty expressing myself.
it's not true tho... ur anger , ur sadness and ur anxiety - everything here is justified here.... u went through something no one should go through
but here u r doing good!!!
because my mother has constantly judged me put me aside stating its all ky fault. i have so much self doubt that i don't know if someone is mistreating me
yes I feel safe to express
i hope you are not judging me.
I won't ever judge you,
I really hate myself to an extend where if anyone is kind to me i cannot understand sometime
thank you skylar. This seems like a safe place
i am unable to make decisions that are good to me. that r rt for me
i always end up making life choices that effect me very badly
i know i am not supposed to make them. but then as if something inside me forces me to do things that hurt me. its the hate and resentment inside me
i don't know how to overcome them. so i feel defeated and it feels i am never going to be able to overcome them
its difficult to do it alone
every person i trust is only there to take some kind of advantage from me
i have had lot of casual relationships after i got seperated. the loneliness was unbearable.
i don't feel very good about myself due to these things. i would have never done something like this if i have had even one healthy relationship
have you tried healing? is it ur first time trying to share ur feelings?
constant judgement from my mother. self hatred, lonliness. everything is eating me up.
no i went to a sycriatist for anxiety last year during lovkdown and i was working from home
sometimes it's better to remove toxic from ur life in order to heal... I know there must be some responsibilities.... but keep maintain a healthy space and distance
i was facing server anxiety issues but they only priscribe medicine
they doyhave time to unravel and resolve personal issues
they didn't give you therapy sessions and counselling?
yes. i have tried
it didn't work?
no there are no therapy sessions. u just have 5 to 10 min
no i have never spoke to a councellor before just a sycriatist.
in that case u can try listening circles on this app, u can share ur problems and listen to others, - there's a Physitraist so u can give it a try
i tried excercise and tried to concentrate on other interests. but the anxiety kicked in very hard. i was unable to function
i feel much better speaking to you
do u provide any councelling seperately in a chat room.
when u feel anxious, what kind of thoughts goes in ur head?
um I'm not qualified and there's no personal chat available here 😅
sorry unable to see your chats again
yes got it
ohh ok. no issues. i am great full u spoke to me for sometime. u asked the correct questions it helped me
when I am anxious usually all failure thoughts come to me.
refresh it, this app has notifications and delivery issues
like how i have failed myself. like how and what i should have done. how it could have changed the situation
yes I see that there seems to be a slight delay
what kind of failure thoughts? your past relationships?
guilt and regret is what u feel?
in other words ur bargaining with urself tho?
so how r u here. is there something tht u would like to share. i would like to listen to u.
yes my past relationships. my past life choices that i had made related to my career and my life. being unable at everything
well...today, I'm sick ...been for past week and got upcoming exams for unis and colleges... not at all prepared.. so nervous and anxious
yes Whenever there is a decision to be taken or a choice to be made. i always make the wrong choices. even though somewhere i know the other decision would be the correct one for me
i want to speak to someone at that time which never happens
if u r bargaining is what u r feeling then, u r at right path... towards healing... you'll get there one day... u'll get the happiness u r looking for
i understand your stress. Take care of yourself. i hope you feel better. i am sure you will do good. you have a rt analytical mind.
yes that is true. i hope am able to
thank you, I'm on same journey... towards better myself
how are u feeling now?
i am feeling much better. all thanks to you
so what r u majoring in. which subject
anytime... feel free to share anything u feel in community....
uhm... Im just a high school graduate 😅
you are very mature for a High school graduate. You are doing good.