I want to but there's a right ways to leave the misery. You know Im on your situation and it keep coming back that kind of thoughts because of our challenges in life, we want to end it but we also don't want. we just want to make our situation better. Its the misery we want to end not us. Please hold on, all that happened to us have a reason for a lesson and growth. I hope I can help you to clear your mind. try to be much kind to yourself and take care of it.