it's like he's my childhood friend and we've been friends for like 7 yrs or more and he's been there for me and there have been times when I thought I like him but eventually I would neglect this all because he is my best friend and I don't wanna lose him

tell him about ur feelings. don't think much.

that's the problem. until now I kept lying to myself but now I've confessed it someone and now it's all real... I'm afraid this will change us because he's in no way gonna say yes

y do you feel he will say no? dose he have a gf?

first just check if he's interested indirectly and then confess otherwise you'll destroy your good relationship with him I'm saying it because of my personal experience