Hello Everyone, Thank you to anyone who is taking time from their life to read this. I am 25 years old and have had epileptic fit for almost 13 years. Epileptic fit is different from epilepsy because it doesn't show on your report and has no particular reason behind it. It is more of a disorder that you have. This year is bringing in too many changes in my life. Good changes actually. But it is taking a mental tol on me. I got into my dream company with a good hike. I am getting married to a guy who knows everything about my health and accepts and loves me very much. My parents are trying to get up from their financial burden by selling the house. I have myself started going to counseling sessions with a professional for past few months. Lots of changes. I will be getting my own flat this August. I should be happy. Thrilled. But instead what these changes are doing is taking away my sleep completely. I cannot sleep at night. I feel horrible at night. I feel I will have an attack. I continuously dread it. I feel scared from the experience. I keep vomiting forcefully to avoid having an attack. I feel exhausted but I cannot sleep. I feel suffocation. I don't know what to do anymore. I just feel like crying and screaming at times. Right now I am feeling like that.