i feel alone even with family and freinds i dont feel connected to anyone
clarke34
like i can hear my breathing even when others are talking
clarke34
when they talk with me i dont know even im present there
ummm
hi
clarke34
i had cried and screamed when alone but even my tears are not mine
clarke34
hi
farshy756
since when you have been experiencing this?
clarke34
i keep thinking about what if i remained alone in rest of my life
clarke34
its like 4 to 5 years
clarke34
even when someone abuses or harrases me i dont feel anything like ive becaome a stone or somwthing
clarke34
i have so much to talk to but then what if other person has nothing to do about it
clarke34
heyy farshy
clarke34
anyone
farshy756
yeah
clarke34
i was wondering that life is nothingness what is the reason for me to be happy
clarke34
see even im typing that fast
clarke34
so that i feel heard
farshy756
see I think you need to talk to someone because you have been experiencing loneliness from a really long time and you mind has belived that this is how your life will turn out.
clarke34
are you really talking to me
clarke34
heyy
farshy756
yeah
farshy756
hey clarke34
clarke34
its not that but i keep running away from people even inside i want to talk to them what should i do
alertchile0
hii do you mind me asking, how this all started?
farshy756
why do you keep running away from people? because you think that they won't understand or because you think that they might judge you.
clarke34
heyy i have so much inside dont know where to start
farshy756
you can start however you want.
clarke34
you can say judge but i have been stabbed many times by even my family members
alertchile0
so was it because of betrayal? ...or many more reasons?
farshy756
do you also experience anxiety?
clarke34
yess betryaed and abusive childhood and hunting emotions of past
alertchile0
is it just family or friends too?
clarke34
only i mean only if was sensitive and wanted someone to have do i deserve to be used
clarke34
is talking and socialising that important that if im sikent and not saying anything does that mean i wanted to be ignoredπππ
clarke34
may my heart rest in peqce
clarke34
peace
farshy756
if you are silent for 4 years, then yeah talking is necessary.
clarke34
heyy farshy,alerchile
farshy756
hey
alertchile0
bro your peace of mind is important
alertchile0
socializing is important but if it is giving you this much anxiety...something is wrong
clarke34
is keeping a relation such as friends that difficult
farshy756
sometimes, yeah
alertchile0
you haven't talked to people for about 4 to 5 years...now people might is used to of you being silent
alertchile0
yes people are important in life
clarke34
you know i feel that i treat my friends and family the same way o my god again im diving into my feelings o god help
clarke34
god help
alertchile0
you just need little bit of courage to really come out of your comfort zone
clarke34
im feeling as if am about to faint
alertchile0
start with people you like....then you can move towards more people
alertchile0
get yourself together clarke
farshy756
sit and count your breath to help with this
alertchile0
maybe you take too much pressure of things... which create problems for you
clarke34
o sorry i just fainted a min ago i was on terracw of my home and a neighborer saw me and and he came and waked me up sorry guys
alertchile0
you can start taking care of your body(excercise) and mind.
clarke34
yess alerrchile i need it badly
clarke34
and farshy thanks for listening my problem
farshy756
no need to thank me
clarke34
well do anyone of u believe that if a person cares for someone likes them does he also deserve to be cared
clarke34
do i deserve care from others
farshy756
you deserve the world
farshy756
their are a lot of people who would love to spend their time with you.
clarke34
π’
alertchile0
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treat yourself right clarke
clarke34
you are very nice person may you get more love and success
clarke34
you listened to me and i pray that like you listened to shattered souls like me you also get good in your life
clarke34
alertchile and farshy u r nice to talk to u
farshy756
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I hope you also get better in life and get the love and success you deserve.βππ₯°