the decisions taken by me....made a hard past I lived through....ik the decisions weren't bad....I don't regret my decisions...I feel my life is stuck in some empty spaces left behind....it hurts that the corners for pleasure are now the corners for feeling extreme hurt and onsets panic attack.... but it is okay...with the course of time we gain things..we lose things...but this past has let me to stay away and not to talk about a part of my life...I hope I do hardwork....I hope I understand getting love of others not expressed to you is a good way to make you strong...as the leaves of my life time tree wither away...I learn it's okay to lose things that are important to you...u will find it hard but u will eventually find something for yourself to replace it...