hey, might not give the best advice but willing to listen

first i wanna thank you for caring♡. ok i'll tell you i really hate everything about me i have no feelingd i just feel that im not real i feel like im faking everything and i have unhealthy relation with food , iam an overthinker and that makes me anxious all the time i have family issues which have caused trust issues i have a boyfriend he is the most beautiful thing in this world but we don't talk right now and that makes me feel hopeless

actually in real life i shiw nothing of that iam a supportive and funny person maybe that is why i feel fake

i think i don't deserve love or happiness and there is alit of people out side this world deserve my life more than me idk

i feel lost

ok so let me start of that I am still where you are! a week or so ago I felt a lot better... but things are bad for me here... I was bottoming up to much, being nma yes person always stretching myself too thin, not getting any rest ... I had a breakdown and NO ONE SEES IST FOR THAT, they see the angry feisty person I became and nou I fear my life will never be te same! MY ADVICE: TAKE SOME SERIOUS TIME BEFORE YOU MAKE A WRONG DECISION LIKE I DID... boil over where and with whom you feel save that wont judge you