it's perfectly ok to cry. yes it's fine. take this. if you are to take care of people and people are dependent on you then you must be in a situation where you are well taken care of by yourself ryt? If you are expected to help someone make sure you have the capacity to help them. so first priority is to take care of yourself and build yourself. so foucs on yourself for now. m not talking bout being the utter definition of Selfish. but in some case it's necessary to be selfish.