Hey just wanna share about my journey, it's been years since i had any meaningful days. Always I am taken advantage of my family. They see me like a failure, waste and garbage burdening there family. They dont let me live the life i desired, i failed gradually to prove how worth n capable I am.I never been in any intimate relationship because i am afraid n my family restricts me having any. My self esteem is gone. I clearly see myself as worthless n failure.I am stuck here as they neither let me go nor live my own. My dad always believes in dramatical things, wants everything to be dramatic. Always insists me to sit in his mind. I am shameful i know cez i depend financially on him and due to this reason i am in deepshit.The people who i consider close secretely resents me leaving no choice but to abandon the network.Now I am alone, having no one but relaying here on strangers.I noticed my stress levels are gone too far, hairpulling, hurting abnormal emotions n frusturations emerged.