yes you have this none to comfort you, bro see past , present, future they are kind of connected no matter what people say activities happened in the past creates tension for present and future. take it through there context to see , why would they want you to be sad. what happened has happened just take care of yourself and the people you love right now ,those who have gone have gone. I have felt pain like this too but not so close like this, there areany people who lost their life during the pandemic too, nothing is predictable. Please take care of yourself. ✌