I have not accepted my alcoholism for the longest time but now I do. A few months ago, I raised my hand on my child in a drunken state for no reason. The next morning, I saw that he was scared of me and would not want to be in the same room as me. My habits are damaging my family but I just cannot stop. I have tried and failed uncountable times now. In fact, I get even more irritable and angry when I stop drinking. I'm stuck in an endless cycle.