I walk away with my boss, I don't understand why my emotion is so really heavy for me at that time. Maybe I don't understand myself.
My anxiety disorder was back at that time when I started my first work, I couldn't control my self anymore. I felt their is heavy inside my heart. Suddenly I walked away because I cannot control anymore my emotion.
well in these type of scenerio it's not bad to walk away from someone.
But I fell she is angry with me?
just explain your situation/problem, she will be fine
Especially I resigned my job because I'm afraid I cannot control anymore my anxiety.
so it's better you stay away from your boss
I guess you are fresher in job line
I'm not fresher in that kind of job because I have experienced, but I don't know what happening me those time. I fell I couldn't do the job well.
well it's happens sometimes recently I did almost same thing
So, it was affecting your productivity right?
yes, my boss hired me because she thing that I'm productively the same when we met for almost 3 years.
My boss is a good person, but I have to quit my job because I don't want that she will expect anymore from me. I don't want she will frustrated my performance that's why I have to leave my job.
That means your boss had trust on you.
Do you think she will trust me anymore? I know that I hurt here.
You know , it's always never about productivity.You been learning new things and gaining experience.
There are people who isn't as productive as much needed.But still they get hired , you know why ! it's just because the recruiter or the manager keeps faith.They think that okay there are not doing good but they can do better.
I can't explain so much, yes she trust me. But I didn't trust my own capabilities to do the job.
How long did you work? like months or years..
Each and every single contribution is necessary..This is why we call it Team..Out Team
I work for almost 1 year on my previous job But this new job only 3 days then I resigned.
You judged your capability by working only for 3 days? Leave! This is not good!
I know it's not good but I'm afraid if I have health issues. I felt that time Iam not happy anymore doing my job.
If you don't feel happy anymore.Then it's totally fine.But if you resigned your job on basis of being less productivile after working 3 days, then it's not good.
I have regrets us always, how should I find peace in this time!
It's hard to explain how you could find peace! I think you should keep on sharing your thoughts to people with whom you feel comfortable.Try doing things which make you happy.
I felt I lost everything🥺
Why do you feel you lost everything?
Because I lost my job, I lost the person who really trust my capability. And I know it's easy for my boss of what I did to here. I felt guilty or I don't understand what's happening with me.
Its okay You can get a new job. It's fine we lost a lot of people in life , even we lost people who trust us, love us.But life doesn't stop.Life keeps on running. I guess you been feeling inferior.As i told you can never judge your ability within a short period.Thats why there's a common and famous phrase ' practice makes perfect
So what should I do next to move forward and not to overthink anymore? So that I can start again.
First , have fun! Do things which you love doing most.And try applying for other posts in different organisations! If you are doubtful about your capability , talk to somebody who is great at the job which you been doing , which you resigned.So in that way you can get new ideas and next time it's less likely to get confused! You can learn a new skills, only if you feel comfy! And what to say just keep on checking new job posts.Or if you have any friend who work for other organisations, may be you can ask him to refer you as a jobseeker on that organisation.
Thank you so much for all your advices. I learned a lot! Yes I will do my best to make everything fine!