Hi. I am not good. i feel so much pressure of not being able to deliver what i was able to do for my family. i feel like an embarrassment for my family. God gave me right opportunities timely, he/she helped me evrytime since now. but i could not sustain that. i just wasted a lot of time, past 11 years. now i see my that time friends and i feel so backward and living a miserable life, it do not hurt me to live such life, thing that hurt me is, my familu is sufferring out no reason from their side. i feel very helpless and stuck into something where from i am afraid that i will never be able to get everything back. may be i am living in past more than in present. i want help.