I am so exhausted and tired most of the time. I feel hopeless, worthless. I don't feel like doing anything. I have constant thoughts of dying. I have also self harm tendency. I even don't have any interest in eating or sleeping. I don't enjoy or like anything. I have lost interest in studying and I just use mobile. My face has become so dull and ugly. My parents will just mock me if I say these. I have been like this for several years. These feelings are like a habit to me. I am afraid of happiness. I have no one I can trust. I feel so much awkward around people. I feel so scared about socializing. Is these feelings are normal or I have some serious mental issue?