i am feeling a bit off. i don't know why but everyone thinks i am bad and maintain a distance from me and I get to hear sometimes that they say bad things about me. either it's my cousin or friends they all first try to show me that they never backfire me but at the end i always stands at a spot where I got to know that this all was fake. why everyone chose me to do that. why I can't understand who is good for me and who is bad. those i used to think is bad turns out in my favour atlast. then I fill with guilt. no matter how i try to make things better with them i always have in my mind that I did wrong with them.i think bad about them and that guilt is not what I like. i used to be so confident in talking and all but now I starts thinking so much that I feel sometimes that I am not that person now who i used to be, the person who i love the most.