My family has a very toxic method of handling arguments. Since childhood, being verbally abused and bad-mouthed had become so normal to me that it was only recently that I realized the impact it has had on me. I always expect the worst out of people and shy away from being treated well. For the longest time I was beaten up by my parents on account of small mistakes too so I've become immune to physical pain. It's messing up the other relationships in my life, what do I do?