I feel so alone. I had an abusive childhood that in my worse moments feels like my own fault. Being around my parents shoots my anxiety through the roof. My job has not been going well the last few months and I am financially struggling, badly. I am trying to be strong and work harder and love myself, but it is getting more and more difficult. My partner has to be away from me to start a new job, and I want to support them, but my mind keeps oscillating between feeling left behind and not wanting to bother them with my troubles. No one around me seems to have the time for any meaningful conversation with me. I feel like I am barely clinging on to what I think should look like sanity.