i have decided to let go off my fear of losing my job (as I mentioned in my last post) and accept that one day soon , it is going to happen....so why fear....let it happen...as this will give me one more reason to proceed towards death bed...I will make sure my family don't suffer....as if something happens to me then they will get some part of the salary for sometime atleast so there will be no fear of what will happen....they will be secures atleast...