Am I that horrible person?

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Hi all, I really any of your opinions,  as I'm struggling with my own self-worth and trying to move on.  So back to 4 months ago,  my ex broke up with my over text messages saying that he had had enough with me and he couldn't suffered with me anymore. But 3 days later, as I tried to returned all the things from him and his apartment keys,  we did have a talk.  He said he felt lonely when we spent time together cuz sometimes I moved to the couch and checked my phone or I felt asleep a lot. The things is I was really busy with my work,  as I work multiple jobs. But I always try to find times to meet up with him or whenever he asked based on his schedule I most definitrly tried to moved all my plans so that we could spend sometimes together. But he never did the same for me, we had 6 years together. Whenever I asked him for breakfast together or sometimes at the weekends,  he would say things like he needed his sleep, or he needed some times out with his friends.

wakefulicecream7 · Answer

Also,  he also said that I was forgotful and forgot to take out the trash and did the dishes,  so when he came back from his tiring trips including his flu, he felt like he had enough. On my side,  I admitted that I'm quite messy as I barely had the time running between jobs,  my home and his home and I was stressed with workload that time. I did tell him that,  and after all he didnt help me with that I was the one who cleaned all my mess,  as well as his house,  his bathroom,  his bedroom, or his kitchen. I was kinda full of baby cockcroaches before I stepped in.

wakefulicecream7 · Answer

All I do was trying to make our relationship work, but now when I thought back I sometimes felt like I was a terrible girl, mainly because of what he said.  While sometimes I felt that I wasnt,  I had put too much in this. (my friends also said that it's not your problems,  if he wanted to he would) .

wakefulicecream7 · Answer

As I'm trying to move on now, I felt realy doubtful about myself and sad.  Was I the problems that we didnt working out?  Cuz in the beginning he knew all that and we agreed on working on it together,  but I also felt like the only one who truely tried is me. I tried to have a career and a saving while also took up his housework sometimes.  I didnt really ask for anythings back like gifts on special occasions, our anniversaries or on my birthdays. I just wanted time together, but at the end he said I didnt spent enough quality time with him, so he felt left out.

tautgelding5 · Answer

are u fine now buddy, first of all u are worthy. repeat after me u r worthy. See it is tough to move on from such situation. and u r a warrior but I would say that if he has gone try to vent out by writing, sharing it out the next step is u r blessed. you deserve the best God will bless you with great partner. someone who understand u. u r a warrior who works hard. I really feel u r handling the pain on ur own it's not easy. not at all. just start doing deep breathing and yoga. it will help u alot

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