Hey! Thanks for reaching out. I can understand, it actually becomes difficult to hold on to things for so long and not having anyone to share your feelings with.
You can share how you feel here.
I am sure must be feeling overwhelmed.
You can try journalling your thoughts. How are your relations with family? Who are you close to?
DISCLAIMER:- Nature of all the advices provided on this platform including Expert’s are for general information only because complete detailed clinical work up of individual not done. These advices in their all aspects are not substitute for Professional Medical Consultation and are not valid for MLC (Medico-Legal cases). All individuals are advised to consult nearest specialists.