Hi new to the community, I'm not sure how or where to start. been on the search for a couple years for anything to help my newly developed aniexty and depression. Parent of a set autistic twins that I feel I'm failing. But they are my everything after a fight with my emotionally abusive mother fee years ago caused the start of my life falling apart. Her hatered and lies caused my entire family to not speak to me I didn't leave my house for 2 years. I'm in a 5 years relationship that has been emotionally roller coaster that I recently found out he never wanted me he wanted an ex but I was the sensible pick. Which made him resent me for the last 4 years cuz I am not her.. I feel so alone but I basically am I don't know who I am anymore but I hate her. Went from someone so confident to scared child. I don't what path I need to take to save myself.