Im 17 years old and have had two anxiety attacks in the last two months. I harm myself and seriously contemplated suicide last week but my friends talked me out of it. I often go into bouts of despair for weeks and at the very peak of these episodes I get suicidal and every time someone has to pull me out of my decision. I feel pathetic and really helpless. I have loving family and friends and a loving boyfriend but none of them can understand my mental anguish. I often go into severe depression and distract myself to not feel the full effects of it but it is proving to be more difficult by the day. Im scared all the time for no reason. I care too much or I dont care at all. My mind is a whirlwind of thoughts scattered all over the place and I feel like Im going mad. I am either hyper focused or I dont work at all and this is further affecting my studies and giving me further anguish. I have lots of family problems but so does everyone and Im often chided for being too weak and sensitive. All the above problems are affecting my life a lot and I have no idea what to do..