Just started work for the first time not only is it stress full but I have bad anxiety and have anxiety attacks trying to take people's orders. I spilled coffee on me and burned myself. I get the urge to cut myself or burn myself on purpose but make it look like an accident. Every one tells me I'm too clingy and my boyfriend will leave me. But me and him barely talk anymore cuz we both work. I see him maybe once a week and every time I see him it always ends in me and him doing sexual stuff. I like it alotttt it feels so good. But I'm scared that one day it will go to far and lose our virginities. I'm not ready for that. I hate my body. Like more than anything.and I'm only 15 so why rush.... but it feels so good what he does to me. Everytime I see him I get that feeling in me. I just wanna go crazy. I'm addicted to porn. Every night at least twice I will do it. I've tried to stop but I cant.