Everything seems falling apart for me. My mind's fucked up. My career fucked up. My finances fucked up. My relationship fucked up. My friendship fucked up. My responsibilities fucked up. Everything's gone south all at once. Ive got no hand to hold or no ears to speak. It's all fucked up for me and i know im to blame for all of it at some point. I just don't know what to do. Im kinda sick of life as a whole and been getting suicidal thoughts a lot. I get these anxiety attacks too where i panic a lot on random thoughts. Everytime when i think yhis is the lowest point i can be and then again, life proves me wrong and slams me down even lower.