anxiety, loneliness and past trauma of parent's marital discord

Anxiety

Depression

I have never felt so badly. There are so many problems in my life (my life is a problem too, haha). I feel anxious, upset and ... empty? At the same time? Is that even possible. I had been feeling such way for a long time, but yesterday, it was the last drop. My laptop just broke while I was preparing presentation for a teamwork. And now I feel myself like a weak spot in a team. I don't want to be a weak spot... And everything went wrong. Perhaps, from the beginning. My parents didn't love each other, they divorced when I was infant. My mother loves me, but I think she is a soft manipulator. I went to the university I didn't like, I am studying a subject that won't give me any good perspectives. I don't know anything, I hate my body, I hate my mind.... I am just exhausted from myself and my life...

tiredSorrow5

2 Answers

binned32

First of all don’t hate your body as your beautiful no matter how u look. Also, doing a course u don’t Like I can understand as it must be killing you everyday doing it but what i suggest complete it snd do masters in something u love doing. Be who you are and there is no need to change for people.

Sunshineme

when one thing comes crashing down then we rewind and replay all our decisions. Ofcourse we will do something that we think that we don't like but we end up doing. but it's already happened. we have 2 option either drop everything and start from scratch and hope that this time around it works or deal with what we have and make the best of it. how we can do that is learn to come around to working out with things we have. your parent dint love each other is there problem but they love you and u r their child. if you are unhappy about ur life, slowly make it likeable. it's in our hands

Frustrating

help me please

how do I change for the better?