I am so sorry to hear this. I had the similar situation but things changed when we grew up amd my father stqrted to realise his mistakes. Tomanage your anxiety you can use 4-7-8 technique
You can read more about it here - https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/324417
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i hope it will help you sweetheart. times can be tough and get some help from relatives or friends if you can...