The first time I moved from my parents' house to Bangalore I loved alone for 3 months and those were the worst of my life. I constantly had anxiety attacks and felt like I couldn't even breathe without trying hard. Then I got a roommate who I had been living with for 3 years but now she's moving out. I'm scared that I'll slip into that phase again. I just can't seem to be alone for too long. The same pattern reflects in my relationships. Why do I hate my own company so much?