never. don't even try. i am here for you, we all are. please know that it's fine to not be okay. you will be okay. i am here if u want to talk.
thedarksoul30
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Well! Every way to die is painful some can hurt you physically some can hurt you emotionally. Okay how r uh so sure that after dying ull be relieved what if uh kill yourself and your afterlife is more worst at least here uh have someone to support tou, someone who will love you, so rather than thinking of ending your life why don't uh fight it. Trust me all will be worth. fight for your happiness it won't go in vain. You are a survival please don't lose hope and stop thinking to end it like this
awez707
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I'll make it short for you. Try to help someone instead of sitting idle and thinking about killing yourself. Feed some strays at road or help somebody with anything. It will make you feel good trust me, this works.
humorousMagpie7
1
i m here baby dont worry
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thanks guys that really means a lot to me <3
humorousMagpie7
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can u tell me what happened tbh
humorousMagpie7
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if u tell u will feel relaxed
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thanks for ur concern dude. I really appreciate it a lot. but it was my fault that i made a lot of mistakes which caused me the loss of my most loved ones because of my weak personnality which leads me to use lies to escape from what im afraid of the most but i end up experiencing my biggest fears and it's all my fault that i lost the closest ones to my heart. the ones who didn't let me down even once. They were my happiness, my safe place when my family wasn't. They're the ones who never got tired of listening to me and that i made a lot of memories with. I may seem like a drama queen but they really meant the world to me and i blame myself cuz i lied cuz i was so afraid if they'd leave me.And now because of my lies they don't want even to see my face once again after all that and they're completely right. I blame myself and im feeling so guilty. I didn't eat for approx. 5 days cuz i have no appetite and i can't sleep. My heart is racing and i can't stop crying while looking to our pics together. It feels so hard even tho i know people are living worse but they're the reason im not suicidal anymore, they're the reason why i survived last year and they're the ones who tried their best to free me from traumas which have been caused by my family.
im sorry for talking a lot but i have no one to open up to and i feel like im a lone and like i've lost my will to live after losing them I have a lot more to say but im barely able to type my hands are shaking rly hard. i always hated mtself because of how hard i was bullied at school since day 1 but now i hate myself even more and it feels so heavy i rly want to be freed. im not even interested anymore in the things that used tk do to feel happy such as listening to music, videogames etc. I wish if i could have them back but i can't face them again with this feeling of how ashamed i am of myself which caused to me to start pushing others away from me and i know that it's wrong but i keep on doing it. death seemed like a peaceful wau for me to free myself from all guilt trauma and pain but that's the only reason why i want to die. i feel so tired i've been trying my hard best but i end up failing rly hard. i just feeeeeel so damn tired of everything specially from the person that i am and i don't feel like trying to fix what's wrong and bad about me that doesn't seem like it'll help bringing back the good old days where i was with them. i just love them so much they were always my first priority in everything. i know that nothing lasts forever and maybe better days are coming but im too weak for this. sorry if i talk a lot
humorousMagpie7
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hey it is ok stop blaming yourself when u never meant wrong for anybody and we all make mistakes and laugh it out and move on . You had family issues and that made u on guard so u develop this emotional dependency on people who loved u and it si normal to feel fear of losing people when u have faced other traumas . You seem like a good heart person thats why u feel guilty right . Be proud of yourself that u feel it . All can be forgiven u didnt kill anyone cmon
humorousMagpie7
1
what if u try to explain to people how u felt and wrote a letter to them . A heartfelt apology maybe they will understand doesnt matter they accept it or not . But they need to hear it
humorousMagpie7
1
We should not take stuff personally when the people r broken or have unhealed traumas . We should care for them
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thanks a lot i appreciate ur words a lot they mean so much to me fr. it's a matter of time i guess it will get easier and life goes on
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that seems like a good idea ima try writing a letter in which i'll explain the way i feel
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again thanks a lot ur so caring and helpful i appreciate everything you did for me a lot specially listening to me that made me feel better.
humorousMagpie7
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you r always welcome :) lovely soul
humorousMagpie7
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i send my love to u 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💞💞💞💞