i know but it's just hard for me to live this life
farshy756
what happened?
guiltystork0
you know many parents have to suffer because of their kids but what if kids are suffering because of their parents doing
guiltystork0
more than mentally I'm emotionally tired
farshy756
then it's much worse memory to remember @guilty
farshy756
being strong hiding all the scars you have is not easy but you have to be strong for yourself.
guiltystork0
I'm remembering those memory since my childhood i have been strong enough to come this far
guiltystork0
my emotional health caused me mental health issues
guiltystork0
you know some things that we can not say to our best friend as well
farshy756
some memories are better to be kept hidden.
guiltystork0
yeah but at one point of time it's hurts a lot
farshy756
it does hurt a lot when you have flashback of those memories.
guiltystork0
and it's still going on
farshy756
it will go on forever, childhood trauma is hard to deal with without professional help.
guiltystork0
yeah i some time hate god for giving me birth in this house
guiltystork0
it's not like i don't love my parents . i love them a lot .but to see a broken family it hurts
farshy756
yeah, it truly hurts
guiltystork0
i don't know how to motivate myself to go through the same shit every time . it's like until i don't give up on my life it's just never going to end
farshy756
it is never going to end, you will always have those memories with you, it's just your will to live which will motivate you to get up from bed tomorrow.
guiltystork0
that will is getting laser day by day . know people around me says i should dressed up a little like other girls but i just don't feel like even doing such things . like I'm living but I'm dead inside
guiltystork0
my interest in things are gone
farshy756
I didn't knew their is a designated fashion for girls, like I thought anyone can were what clothes they are comfortable with.
guiltystork0
i mean wearing earings and do a little make up occasionally like that
farshy756
I can understand, my mom also comments on my height and the way I keep my hair.
guiltystork0
yeah . you know i also want my parents to be like others parents to but i Guess it's just a dream for me in this life
