I am in my late 20s. I was dating (now estranged) this guy who was my college senior since 4.5 years. I think I had enough. I don't want to blow my own horns but I am both ambitious and family-loving person. I believe in dating that would transition to marriage, therefore having similar life goals is a must. I come from a humble background and my family is still not that supportive of higher education. I mangaed to secure scholarship and tried my best to rise from this hell hole. I failed to pursue PhD abroad due to lack of support. I was heartbroken and grief-stricken. I was suffering from existential crisis, constant comparisons, self-loathing, etc. My walls were weakened and I was comforted by this guy that time. Everything was going normal until I found out that he lied to me all these years about everything-goals, job, degrees, etc. I feel like my vulnerability has been used against me. I feel devastated. I failed my career as well as my relationship. I feel lost and hopeless.