Hey! Thanks fir reaching out. Doing something out of pressure isn’t a very good idea, rather try to figure out what is it exactly that you want to do. You are too young right now, explore options read about different career options. Off beat career options are also great, you just have to be great in what you are doing. Don’t worry. What makes you anxious about studying! Do you also have any other thought in mind that could be the reason your performance is going down?

I'd like to thank you Dr. Zoya for reaching out to people like us, who are feeling lonely and there is a kind of emptiness inside them. It really gives you hope and relief when there is a person in front of whom you can open your heart without any kind of worry...

The thing is I had a terrible childhood...I was forced to be and act much mature and elderly than actually I was because my mother was too strict towards us because she wanted us to be perfect child always comparing us to others I use to think it since then how do our parents expect us to be perfect when they themselves aren't perfect parents. She herself behaves quite immature after every argument with papa...shouting, yelling and not eating for several days were quite normal those things were quite normal. All those things affected our childhood a lot and those memories still haunts me sometimes...as she was sometimes too harsh on us. She's still the same but her behaviour didn't affect us as much as then as we are grwon now but I don't think she should be blamed totally for her behaviour because she too had faced so much in her life married at a very young, she had faced much more than us but what can I do I'm not able to handle this much and now she is even ill and a patient of high blood pressure which makes the situation more worse as she gets annoyed over little things....

I can only imagine the hurtful feeling and loneliness you must have experienced during your childhood. I am glad that you have now started rationalising the situation and your thoughts, I am sure this must have changed your behaviour and feelings towards your mom. People who have gone through a lot tends to become harsh. You must also be having that traits in yourself because you have also been experiencing the same stressful environment. Don’t be too harsh on yourself. I am sure the situation has made you grow earlier than your age but you are still too young. Don’t lose hope, still do things that you love.