I just confused, confused what to do what to not, what is right what is wrong. I keep on pushing myself, as my senior says no one can help me other than me but "the me" already gave up on me... My cousin has life threating disease and with depression, that becomes the reason that justify I am just acting and wanting to get attention. It does, she can never recover from her damage but I was never damaged, she lost her mother but I didn't, than I must be seeking attention and not more than acting like a teenage girl faking to get attention from people. How can this go every time.