Being transgender and having to contend with societal notions can be very painful. While I cannot even begin to fathom what this must be like for you, please know that you are not alone. Please reach out for help. Also there are other people who are going through similar challenges. Would you consider connecting to such communities? Most importantly, please know that what you're going through, while painful, doesn't mean that you're not enough or unworthy of love and respect. Consider this exercise; think about who is it that you really are. If your name and pronoun feels wrong, then what does feel right? What name and pronoun would you prefer? How would you like to define yourself? Think hard about this and then practice self love and self acceptance. While others may still not understand soon, it's important that we accept ourselves. So begin that practice and make it a daily effort.

Hey Laiuz, I can only imagine how overwhelming this must feel for you. You are your own person and know yourself best. Before you fully commit to transitioning, it might help to build a support group, a community that has gone through what you're going through. I would suggest reaching out to LGBTQ support groups as you may find people in the same boat. You could always try different clothing to begin with, see how you feel looking in the mirror. You don't need to figure this out all at once. Give yourself time. Remember to be kind to yourself as you go through this. It's gonna be okay :)

Thank you both for your help, it made me cry a little... i will follow your advice for sure!